Feeling Content 

Feeling content has a lot to do with feeling happy about your circumstances and being grateful for who and what you have in your life.  That can be very challenging when your basic needs are not being met.  I’m not talking about food, shelter, and clothing basic needs, although I’m sure it’s difficult to feel content when those needs are not being met either.  I am talking about being respected and listened to and things of that nature.  It’s hard to look on the bright side and see the positives life has to offer when the people who are most important in your life don’t value and appreciate you or treat you with respect.  It also becomes difficult to live in the moment and enjoy the little things when there is so much negativity on a regular basis.  Unfortunately, I am speaking from plenty of experience.

I just read a quote that said, “When you learn to accept instead of expect, you’ll have fewer disappointments.”  This may be true to a certain extent, but I don’t think it’s unreasonable to expect to be treated with respect and kindness, to feel valued as a whole person, and to have others be honest with me.   Continue reading

Being In Limbo and Needing Resolution

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Being in limbo is one of my least favorite places to be, yet I’ve been finding myself there all the time lately.  There are so many aspects of my life that are up in the air right now that it’s hard to think much beyond a few days at a time.  I’ve always done better with stability and predictability in most aspects of my life, so the unknown is difficult to swallow sometimes.  I don’t like loose ends or not being able to anticipate the next step.  Once I have a plan or know what to expect down the road though, then I’m good.

The problem is there are so many unknowns that the comforting feeling doesn’t usually last very long. Then I’m onto the next unknown.  I know life is full of ups and downs and is ever revolving, but there are some pretty significant things right now that I am unsure of how they will work out.  It just gives me that out of control feeling like I am just along for the ride and am powerless to steer myself in any particular direction while I ride out the storm.

Consequently, I tend to latch onto things that are predictable to balance everything out.   Continue reading